4 more days to yet another death. at times i wonder why we're all so worried about the results when it has in fact, already been determined. no amount of hoping/wishing/praying will help. but i guess the uncertainty is so intense, we do silly things to make ourselves feel better. all of a sudden, i wish i could press pause, then fast forward. we'll skip the bad parts and move on. isnt that the way life should be? ((:

kayaking with the hakeem, randel & victor was enjoyable, though i was the sole girl. spent half the time capping & terrorising victor's boat. :] paddling against the strong winds & waves, getting entangled in the fishing lines of random strangers, standing on the kayak, just lazing in that little sampan was THE life. a few years ago, i wouldnt have defined life as such. but a few years later, simple pleasures like these bring a smile to my face.

i would do anything to turn time back, where i lived in the protected schooling environment; protected from the harsh realities, where i could live in my happy bubble & not worry about anything else, where we bitched about teachers/random people, where we were truly happy.

so tracy asked me that day "jialing, have you ever wondered what would have happened if you stayed in ac?" that simple question made me realise that after being in tj for almost 2 years, i dont regret making the decision i made. yes, i know i ranted alot about how i hated tj and loved ac. 2 years later, i realised that people have changed that thought in me. rock girls, twenty-nine girls, the rock guys. life could have been more glam & hip in ac, but i look back and realise life in tj wasnt that bad after all. (: in fact, i realise i had the best of both worlds ;)